Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Previa, Previa, Previa {sigh}

After dealing with placenta previa diagnosed around 13 weeks, they have now detected vasa previa at 29 weeks. Last week, I was instructed by my specialist that if I bleed it could likely be the baby so to get to the hospital right way. In addition, because of such a high risk of the baby bleeding they were planning to admit me into the hospital at 32 weeks and plan an early delivery. That was on Thursday, July 1 and on Monday, July 5th I started bleeding. So, the whole family promptly jumped in the car and rushed to the hospital. Baby Garrett and I were both stable from the moment we got here...Praise God. The bleeding subsided but we were continually monitored for 12 hours. I was also having some fairly serious contractions so we are not sure if the contractions set off the bleeding or if I just physically overdid it this weekend. Regardless of why, I had a bleed so now I am at the hospital. Since they were planning to admit me at 32 weeks and I am 30 weeks now, it is sounding more and more like they are just planning on keeping me in case it does turn into an emergency situation then I will already be here. When I saw the specialist again today he said they will look on ultrasound in two weeks to see if the fetal blood vessels have migrated to a safer place. If they have there is a good chance I can go home. If not, they will keep me until delivery of the baby between 34-36 weeks. All that to say I could be here for anywhere from 2-6 weeks. I am so thankful that they are taking this so seriously and watching us so close to have the best chances in an emergency situation.

The long and short of all of this? God is in control and I am at total peace that He will work on me and baby Garrett and has all of His plans already laid out for our family. He will not foresake us during our time of need for support, encouragement, comfort and guidance. I love the saying that is a chapter title in the book A Mother's Heart that says, "God Is Your Only Circumstance!" An awesome reminder that no matter what the situation is God and glorifying Him deserves my total focus and not to be distracted by things that are so much smaller than God!

The practical issues:
Having daddy and kids at home without mama is weighing on my heart pretty heavily. I am praying for God to lead me in affirming and supporting my dear sweet husband in all he is stepping up to take care of now. I am praying for God to direct me in maintaining bonds with my children even though I am not going to be with them full-time for a number of weeks. I am praying thanks for everyone who has already helped us out and prayed for us. I am so eternally grateful for the sweet prayers that have been prayed holding my hand in the hospital room, over the telephone, and the distant prayers. We are so blessed to have such a wonderful God and He has blessed us so richly with wonderful family, church family, and friends.


Victoria said...

I am so sorry for you and your family ... but glad that baby Garrett and you are OK. You are exactly where you need to be to be and remain healthy. The only advice I can give you is what I was told when Catherine got sick (not that I always took it). That is to remember to show yourself and your spouse tons of grace and recognize that you will be exhausted for most of the time during this phase in your life, but it is just a phase. This will not last forever. You will not be separated from your kids forever. Andrew will not be a "single dad" forever, even though it will feel like it..

Faith Girl said...

We're all praying for you! Hope you two are safe.